I grew up in the Christian, Methodist tradition and believe it gave me the early progressive roots that I apply today. This faith along with my parents support and teaching in the house has helped to inform a lot of what I believe and act on as a productive citizen. It’s true, “important adults in our early life help create our core beliefs and therefore, how we act, think, and feel from them.”
In high school and college, I found a tribe in the Evangelical church and even went on to make my first career based on its theology, restrictions, and music. Most of the time, I knew that this set of core beliefs were not my family’s beliefs. I could feel how the E church restricted me as a woman and as a person and as a musician…but I thought, and was taught at the time, that I would be “better” if I listened and applied the values of the E Church.
Looking back, I am glad that I felt uncomfortable and that I held loosely the submission of my True Self while serving at the pleasure of Evangelical ideas. Still, I spent 25 years of my life navigating its lies. Its tentacles found their way into my core beliefs, blurring them and confusing the way I acted, thought, and felt. I have spent the last 7 years healing and digging down to the progressive roots I abandoned.
This is the first of 3 posts in the next week. Not only will it be for my own mental and future health, but maybe for someone else.