Birth of VenusRecently my husband and I watched a movie that showed much different than I expected. I was glad for the opportunity and for making the choice to see it. When my expectations of someone or something interfere with an opportunity, I know I will loose out on a transformation every time.  The movie we watched was about a man who took a risk to be himself, to allow his flaws to be seen and to follow the biggest risk of all – exactly what his heart was telling him.
I have realized, my desire to keep up with the status quo is wasting time, holding me back and therefore, keeping my voice silenced.  I may sound like a misguided creative “looking to make a difference” in the world, but maybe if I stop matching up with those around me and give what I have – I will do just that.

musician doorWhy do we perform?  Why do we put ourselves on the spot, sweat, combat a dry throat and risk forgetting foreign words? Because in some secret way, we are adrenaline junkies.  And we live for the thrill of the performance.  I tell students, the only way we can get over the fear….AND learn to love the rush of the moment, is to put themselves in the light.

That place we go when we perform is a special place.  A zone. A tunnel. A field of wheat on the hillside.  Whatever it is for you, it must be a place you go to find the magic of who you are as a performer.  Wait, did I just call it “magic?” Yes. I use this word because that is what it is.  And if I jump right to words like “life changing” or “freaking amazing zone of constant euphoria” – it might be a bit much.  But really, that is what it is.

What lies behind the Musicians Only door is both glamorous and not glamorous at the same time.  There are some days I enter the door with a heavy sigh and some days I am light on my feet.  But every time I enter that door, I enter with every passionate musician in my heart.  And I step onto the stage to connect with anyone who comes to hear me sing.  That is why….

When an artist speaks her voice into the world, she does it in an effort to stay alive. To be alive, ignite her true self and connect the inner flame to the outer world. This is what I call “voice” and “song.” The voice within the artist and the song it produces in the world.

When an artist expresses himself in an effort to change the status quo – impact – make ripples in the still water… he may do so with the idea that he is contributing to the larger picture. But what if what he says is “the” point? What if what she sings “changes” everything? And what if that impact causes violence? Let me tell you, the artist thought it through and spoke it anyway.

It is his voice.

Let art shape you – not frustrate you. Let art inspire you to step into the cause it is pointing to – don’t get mad at the artist. Let art be the catalyst and you…the hero.